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My drawing of Shinichi Kudo by aily4869 My drawing of Shinichi Kudo :iconaily4869:aily4869 0 0 Think about it... by aily4869 Think about it... :iconaily4869:aily4869 2 2 Ugly Duckling by aily4869 Ugly Duckling :iconaily4869:aily4869 0 0


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I Seldom Want Most
It feels like I'm drowning again.
Again and again... And again.
It's never ending.
It never will.
As long as I'm alive...
The pain will kill.
Many things cannot suffice.
The pain will only subside, later coming back but twice.
To what I've become the water runs down.
My lungs are now filled as I wear this crown.
A life of uncertainty laced in sin.
No one knows how deep I fall in.
Call it cliché, call me a drag.
But I will stand but not with a pale flag.
I may be young, I may be naive.
But don't be to quick to guess what my mind can conceive.
I know pain like the back of my hand.
Nothing you throw at me I can't withstand.
I've never been hit, never been touched.
But the pain that I feel I can only take so much.
A pain I know, the betrayal of my mind.
Look through my soul, see what you find.
I've asked for help.
They believe it's an attention yelp.
Feeding my demons, I am a great host.
Of all my wishes this is the one I seldom want most.
But it seems my condition has worsened.
It se
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Queen of Pirates V3_Invert by ValkyrieRoberts Queen of Pirates V3_Invert :iconvalkyrieroberts:ValkyrieRoberts 3 0 Scourge by AphBritain Scourge :iconaphbritain:AphBritain 292 58 Warriors Manga: Chapter 1 Page 4 by Mizuki-Murasaki Warriors Manga: Chapter 1 Page 4 :iconmizuki-murasaki:Mizuki-Murasaki 12 8 Bluestar's Deputies by Spirit-Of-Alaska Bluestar's Deputies :iconspirit-of-alaska:Spirit-Of-Alaska 1,005 136 Bluestar by Toby-Wolfkat Bluestar :icontoby-wolfkat:Toby-Wolfkat 278 83 Bluestar?... by lykinz Bluestar?... :iconlykinz:lykinz 629 171 Firestar i dun belive you by Chearii Firestar i dun belive you :iconchearii:Chearii 7 1 it's not funny by theZeo it's not funny :iconthezeo:theZeo 71 33 Conan accidental kiss by wolfjmk Conan accidental kiss :iconwolfjmk:wolfjmk 67 61 I Laugh at My Own Jokes Stamp by Emotikonz I Laugh at My Own Jokes Stamp :iconemotikonz:Emotikonz 4,075 249


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SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO since I just realized that I'm the only person in the world of DeviantArt without a journal entry, I decided to post one.
Now what to say?
Well, to start, am not so patient with drawings. Especially digital ones. And that's why I only have like...what? Three drawings? For some reason I TOTALLY suck at drawing manga (unlike my fellow otakus :P). Am good at sketching, and I would be better if not for my lack of patience.
However I kinda like to write stories. In fact, I read a lot! Sometimes I spend my whole entire day reading. Guess that's an advantage. I would be better at writting stories if it was not for the writter's block I often get or because the story last longer than I thought. But if I'm given an idea, I can do it perfectly.
And thus, my journal is finished. The End.
(P.S: Sorry for any typos!)


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nomawolf01 Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2015  Student General Artist
I'm proud of her. Please help her live life to the fullest and bless her in her chosen field. Now, you're on the clock. In 9 minutes something will make you happy. Please share this with 15 girls you love. Remember, only for *girls*. If I don't get this back I'm obviously not a close friend. Now, I have a game for you, it's been played since 1977. Once you read this, you have to send it to 15 people. Your next 5 days will be like this: Day 1 - you will wake up to the biggest shock of your life. Day 2 - you will cross paths with an old friend you have missed. Day 3 - you will find yourself with a lot of money. Day 4 - your day will be perfect. Day 5 - the love of your life will kiss you. ....if you don't forward this, your next 5 days will be the exact opposite. Don't break this. Send it to 14 friends in 10 minutes. It's not that hard. Whoever sent this to you must care about you
nomawolf01 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2014  Student General Artist
aily4869 Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2014
The roof LOL
XxGrimmysXcakexX96 Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the fav.
aily4869 Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014
Ur Welcome
RossiniCrezyel Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hello there!  Meow La 

 :iconrikkavplz: Thank you so much for the llama! Heart

Heart I really appreciate it!  :meowlove: 

 Free Avatar - CupTardCake  Have a nice day!  :meowlove: 
aily4869 Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014
*eats le cyber cupcake* No Problem :D

Have a nice day too!!!
CrispinVCampion Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014
Thanks for the fave.
aily4869 Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2014
U welcome
coolshiho Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2014
thanks for the fav! ^^
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